Tuesday, June 1, 2010
Ah yes, the ambiguous update of earlier just doesn't quite cut it for me, the epic blogger. So, here we go.
I'm on cycle 7 of Clomid (though I've heard that the longer you are on it the less likely you will be able to sustain a pregnancy, due to thinning uterine lining. Can anyone confirm or deny this?) I've started to become accustomed to the hot flashes and mood swings that I now embrace with this medication. I feel like I should be going through menopause.
I also know that I will never go on birth control again. We will have our two kids, however long that takes, and then move on with life. Birth control, in it's many forms, may have screwed up my ability to have children. It was smart to take when I needed it, but that responsibility has taken it's toll.
I've started up again on a half dose of antidepressants. I've felt a lot more even since restarting, and I think I'll remain on them for a while. No harm, no foul.
Life is starting an up swing. Jon just graduated Law School and was offered a position that he loves (he interned with them during this past year.) This means that I can finally go back to school and start on my Masters Degree. I will be starting my Masters of Psych degree as early as mid June.
More and more of my friends are starting to expand their families. Some are having the baby shower, some are just finding out they are expecting. Some just had their first child, or are talking about how hard it is to conceive their second child. I feel like a horrible friend for turning down baby shower invitations, but mentally... I just don't feel up to it.
But, my time will come. Truly, it will. Dr Awesome is awesome, and if it can be done, I have faith she can make it happen.
I am reading all of your blogs, and would love your recommendations as to other fun blogs to read. Thank you for all your comments. Comments= mental cupcakes. (Mmmmm, cupcakes!)