Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Laura: "So, are you the one who is going to a special doctor to try to get pregnant?"
Me: *pauses for what seems like quite a few seconds to just shake this 'why the hell is she asking me this, and why is it any of her business?'* "Uh, yeah... who told you that?"
Laura: "Oh, I dunno who told me, I just heard... So.. are you?"
Me: "Am I..."*pause* "What?"
Laura: *Matter of Factly* "Pregnant."
Me: I might be, I might not be... I don't know.
Laura: *Incredulously* "you don't KNOW?"
Me: "Of course I know. It's just something that I may or may not share with everyone." *Strong Inflection towards frustration at her nosiness.* "It's personal."
Laura: *Obviously offended and appalled that 'I' wouldn't tell her anything* "Well.... good luck with all those endeavours then."
Me: "Yeah, thanks."
See, it's one thing if she had read my blog, where I am very open about this whole thing, but she heard it from someone at work, I guarantee it. Gah, I'm so annoyed.
Monday, August 24, 2009
I'm curious that Clomid really hasn't affected me. Many people say that they experience rapid mood swings, etc... but so far, it's been great. if anything (Jon even says) I might be happier and more grounded than ever.
Up next? Well, a OPK wait. I've received the pack of 20 OPK's from online... these are MUCH cheaper, and many people seem to use them and see good results. Much nicer than having sticks around.
I've made a decision, at least for now, that until we are done having kids completely, I'm not taking birth control anymore. It really messed with my system, and it took nearly 8 months to fix it.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
8. What about multiple births as a result from Clomid? Clomid is a low-level fertility drug. The chances of a multiple birth (twins) increases 40 times while taking Clomid.
Jon is freaked out by the idea of having twins. I actually prefer it, as I could just do the whole child-birth thing once and be done with it. Also, I think that it would be easier with sharing the clothing resources, etc. Jon thinks it would be nuts. I understand where he is coming from, the whole "two babies = two times the amount of work", but still.
Who's with me? Am I crazy?
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
I start Clomid again on Friday of this week for 5 days, then start ovulation testing. I got some OPK strips for cheap online, and will end up saving me about 30 dollars, as I'm getting 20 for $18.00, instead of 7 for $30.00!
Sunday, August 16, 2009
For the first time since being off birth control. I had a normal cycle. I ovulated, and I had a 38 day cycle.
I know that it's not a clear picture, but the cross hairs say when I ovulated, and it's right on track. 10 days after the end of Clomid. We missed our window by 2 days, but next time, we won't.
This gives me such hope, and peace that I can be a mother. It might take a couple of cycles, but, my body can do it.
Saturday, August 15, 2009
Does this diminish my experience? No. So, with that understood, on I go..
Blood test came back negative. I suppose I didn't expect the emotional impact of this negative. I had high hopes for this cycle because of the additional drug support. I thought I had prepared myself by reading that it often takes a few cycles... and even scared myself a bit straight by reading blogs of women who HAVE been trying for years. Yet, getting the email that my blood test came back negative was like a slap in the face.
The full force didn't hit me until this morning, about 12 hours later. I feel off center. I feel like a failure. Reasonably, I'm aware that it's not my fault (in the willing fault sense) but I feel as though something as simple as conceiving, something people have done for millions of years is somehow beyond us. However, here we go again.
If someone asks me about whether we are planning to start a family, or "just relax" or "lose weight" again... I might punch them.
Friday, August 14, 2009
So, here's hoping. I'm not sure when I can expect to get my results, but I'm going to try to rush them.
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
1. What is Clomid?
Clomid is a fertility drug. Its chemical name is Clomiphene Citrate, and Clomid is sometimes also referred to as Serophene. These are all the same drug. It is used to treat women who have an ovulation problem by stimulating the ovaries to mature an egg.
2. What does Clomid do?
Clomid works by suppressing the amount of naturally circulating estrogen and "tricks" the pituitary into producing more follicular stimulating hormone (FSH) and Luteinizing hormone (LH). These natural gonadotropic hormones (FSH and LH) then stimulate the ovaries to ripen a follicle and to extrude an ovum (egg).
3. When do I take Clomid?
Your physician will instruct you to take Clomid on either days 3-7 or 5-9 of your cycle, and it is usually based upon the Dr's preference and/or experience. Please follow your physician's directions carefully.
4. How much should I take?
The initial recommended dosage is 50 mg but it may be increased to 100 mg (or more) until the desired response is achieved. It is important to chart while taking clomid and some doctors will recommend using Ovulation Predictor Kits (OPKs) as well.
5. When will I ovulate?
It may take time to establish an appropriate and effective dosage for each person. Once that is established, you should expect to ovulate 5-8 days after the last pill is taken. If you do not conceive in that cycle, AF will usually arrive three weeks after the last pill.
6. When should I DTD (have intercourse)?
You should DTD at least every other day, beginning the third day after your last pill is taken and continuing for one week, or until a thermal shift indicates you've ovulated.
7. Are there any side effects from Clomid?
Clomid can interfere with the ability of the cervical mucus glands to be stimulated by estrogen to produce fertile mucus. Only "hostile" or dry cervical mucus may develop in the days preceding ovulation. Robitussin may help to improve the cervical mucus.
The most common side effects are hot flashes due to the body's hormone levels and a mild headache. The headache usually disappears once the last pill is taken, and the hot flashes once ovulation has occurred. Visual symptoms such as spots, flashes or blurry vision are less common and indicate that treatment should stop.
8. What about multiple births as a result from Clomid?
Clomid is a low-level fertility drug. The chances of a multiple birth (twins) increases 40 times while taking Clomid.
9. What about ovarian cysts? I've heard Clomid can cause them.
Yes, you can get an ovarian cyst while using Clomid. An ovarian cyst will dissipate on its own, though. It is, however, necessary for your ovaries to be checked for cysts before any additional dosages of Clomid are administered. Clomid could cause an enlargement in an ovarian cyst.
10. Is Clomid associated with any congenital birth defects?
The % of congenital birth defects in children conceived with the assistance of Clomid is no different than the % of congenital malformations in the general population.
11. How long will it take for me to get pregnant using Clomid?
More than half the women taking Clomid will get pregnant during the first three cycles and more than 3/4 occur at the 50mg. dose. Most doctors will only prescribe Clomid for six (6) cycles. After that time, other measures may be recommended, such as IUI or IVF.
Sunday, August 9, 2009
I'm going back to work tomorrow from a long week on vacation. I'm hoping not to stress out too much, and also to continue with the Couch To 5K. I'm on week 4, day 3 on my next run. Next week is a 2 mile run. To think that a bit more than a month ago, I was unable to run for 60 seconds. What a great ride!